Submission 93
My Darling,
I am so very sorry for letting you down. I didn’t see the pain you were in. You ask for forgiveness but you don’t need to be forgiven, it is I who needs forgiveness. I have let you down.I was the one person who you should have been able to talk to. The one person you should have been able to be open with. But I failed, I failed to have the openness between us that would have let you be able to open up to me.I miss you every minute of everyday.
Submission 92
Adrian,
Just over a year since you left this earth. In truth you left us way before that but the real agony began then.I don’t know how to even begin to forgive you for leaving them and I have no more words.
Submission 91
Dear Moo,
If only you knew how much you were loved! If only you knew how much you would be missed!
Submission 90
Dear Dad,
The last time we spoke you knew you were going to be a Grandpa but you couldn’t hold on long enough to meet your beautiful granddaughter.
Submission 89
To my lovely brother,
Today marks the sixth month that you have been gone, and yet I still have not accepted your death. I am not coping as I should, and I am in fact lying to myself every single moment of the day, telling myself that you will come back one day…
Submission 88
Dear Dad,
I just wish you’d stayed.I know it’s impossible to rationalise a completely irrational act, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t spent the last 4 years trying.I have been strong and determined to make a good life for myself, to choose happiness always. It hasn’t been easy, there has been days I have wanted to give in, but just like my father I am stubborn and I will not.
Submission 87
To my Brother
Why? That was the question I couldn’t move past for years. I couldn’t understand, so I found explanation in blaming you and blaming myself.
Submission 86
My lovely Mum,
I’m sorry depression won.
Submission 85
Dear Loz,
I didn't think I'd make it through this past year. Losing you has blown a hole in our family. It has blown a hole in my heart. I don't think you could possibly have understood the devastation we feel that you are not here with us. And no matter how many times people tell me it wasn't my fault, I still feel so guilty. I'm your mum, how could I not? I still relive that last week, every moment, wishing with all my heart there was a way to change what happened.
Submission 84
To my brother,
In a few months I will be older in days than you got the chance to be, a strange realisation for a little sister.
Submission 83
To my darling Jack,
I miss you so much. Every second of every day despite it being 931 days since you left us all. I was so angry at first, I thought how could you do this and plunge everyone who loved and knew you into such heartache.
Submission 82
J.J
Just over 2 years have passed since you left us. There’s been so much you’ve missed getting your degree which your university still sent out, meeting your new nephew and seeing your other niece and nephew start new schools.
Submission 81
Dear Dad,
I'm not sure where to start. 2 and a half years on and I am beginning to be able to feel a glimmer of warmth when I hear your laugh in videos or see your smile in all the photos your loved ones share of you.
Submission 80
Dear Joel,
Today would be your 25th Birthday, it’s also marks 5 years since we lost you.
I’ve come to the tough realisation that I have now officially lived without you as long as I lived with you. We became friends at 15, lost you at 20 and now I’m 25. And that is a pretty bitter pill to swallow.
Submission 79
Mum,
I often dream that we are together again. I tell you how awful it was that you had died, you’d died by suicide and how terrible it was for us all that we had thought we had lost you.
Submission 78
Dear Marc,
There's so much I wish I could say but I won't ever find the words to explain the pain I feel without you, the hopelessness, how everything seems pointless without you.
Submission 77
Hey Ciaran,
2 years on and I still can’t believe that you have gone. I still wait for the text and the silly GIPHY. Miss your voice and silly laugh!
Submission 76
To my darling Mike,
I think every day about what I would say if I could speak to you one last time. The truth is there really is so much to tell you.
Submission 75
Beautiful Duncan,
My Darling Duncan, OH how I miss you,I am broken, there are no answers and I will always ask why.Your brother says when we meet again, to you it will be seconds but to us it will feel forever and I won't even care Why you left I will just be so pleased to be with you again.
Submission 74
Louise,
Born just nine months apart I feel like you were always there, my cousin, my best friend throughout childhood and into adulthood.