Submission 256

Dear Harry,

Dear Harry,

Your birthday comes round so quick every year, another birthday i spend reminding myself of how much you have missed, how much you could have achieved or places you would have seen. It’s 8 years now since i saw you on your birthday. 8 years of missing you, 8 years of not being able to be your annoying little sister and come to you for advice as well as 8 years i got older and you didn’t…

Every milestone is dampened without your presence. I remember being your little sister always wanting to make you proud and i feel the loss of you when i’ll never know if you’ll be proud of me again because i can’t hear you say it.

I just want you to know, I forgive you for leaving but I wish I could’ve been a normal sibling and forgive you for a fight. I remember you for all your greatness and not the darkness that shadowed me for years after you were gone. You gave me the purpose to carry on by giving me the most important role of my life to be an auntie. I just wish you could have felt this feeling when it was time for you to become an uncle.

Hate myself feeling jealous when people talk about their siblings, I hate that people are scared to talk about you, I hate that all my stories have become old and told, I hate that I have to walk this life without you and navigate all the grief of loosing older family members alone, I hate that the only relationship that made me feel like i had a family unit is gone and i can’t relate to my friends families. I hate that I have to miss my love for you rather than being able to love you everyday.

Love,
Your little sister.