Submission 254

To our beautiful boy,

Since you’ve left there’s been so many things that remind me of you. As times gone on it’s things that make me sad and happy in equal amounts. (More happy as we move forward)

When a new song comes out I think ‘You would love this’ and automatically imagine you singing it to us and sending us a video note. Then the pain hits like a punch in throat.

I often think wherever you are and whatever you’re doing I hope you get to hear these songs and you think of us too.

I’m sorry you had to go and I wish more than anything you had stayed but I’ll never be angry at you my darling boy.

I get married next year and I know you will be there with me front and centre as we planned. Planning it hurts so much as everytime your name is there on paper (I can’t bare to take your name off the list) I know you won’t be there.

We’re looking after your mum and checking in with her regularly even if she’s not asked us too, she’s stuck with us for life now.

I’ll let you go for now my angel but I’ll drop you a WhatsApp soon.

Feel free to reply when you can.

Love you babe xx