Submission 10
Dear Alexis,
There are so many things I feel like I need and want to say to you. I want to call you just to chat like we used to. I want to hear your laugh again. Man, I loved your laugh. I can hear it as I type these words. I want to see you with my babies. Listen to you while you talk with them, read to them, cuddle them.
I want to rewind time and go back to when you and I were little and dad would make way too much popcorn on movie nights. I felt like I could tell you anything. You were always so supportive and my biggest cheerleader.
Submission 09
F,
I think about you a lot. You left such an impression on me at quite a young age and I've always been so grateful, even though I can't quite pinpoint why. I think it's just because you were just so unapologetically 'you' and you were able to say so much without saying much at all.
Submission 08
Dear Kian,
It’s been 1 year, and 7 months and it hasn’t gotten any easier without you here. You’re on my mind every hour of every day, I often wonder what I would say to you, and today 04/04/2022 this is how I feel.
Submission 07
Dad,
I hope you have found the peace that you were looking for. When I am asked that dreaded question “how did he die?” I simply say, you died from sadness.
It tears me apart that you felt as though this was the only option you had. I’ve grown up hearing stories about how funny you were, how you lit up every room you entered with your personality and dance moves… although they are nice to hear, it also breaks my heart a little more each time.
Submission 06
Dear Adriana,
I know keeping you here would have been selfish of me. While of course the trauma of losing you is still raw, I really respect your decision to end it. I know you had lived a lot of trauma yourself over the years and living with bipolar challenged you in ways I can’t even imagine.
Submission 05
Mum,
It's been 8.5 weeks since I lost you. I think about you every single minute of every single day. I can't help thinking about the last time I spoke to you on your 62nd birthday only two weeks before you took your own life. It was a conversation full of hope and optimism and I was so proud to hear that you wanted this to be your year after suffering so much last year with both your physical and mental health. This made the news all that more shocking but really I wasn’t shocked. I knew it was something that had been on the cards for years and it was a matter of time before you did it.
Submission 04
To our precious Benji,
Miss you with every breath that I take and will until my last. It breaks my heart that you aren’t here and won’t have your ‘happy ending’ that you so deserved.
Some days seem impossible to bear without you and yet I must, for Ell, Lill and Ria. I listen to your voice on videos, and see your smiling face looking back but I know that you hurt so much.
Submission 03
Dear Mum,
It’s been over 30 years now, but I still think of you often. I see you when I look in the mirror and I’ll never forgive the flat ass I inherited from you.
Submission 02
Dear Aeva,
It's going on 2 years…well you left us June of 2020 exactly 1 month after your 15th birthday.
I remember the day, like it happened today…your Grandpa Dave called me…it was 10:47 am, I was trying to get ready for work..I wasn't feeling quite right..kind of sick feeling.
Submission 01
My Darling Adrian,
It is the 3rd Anniversary of your suicide on the 7th April. We still miss you so much, but we ask everyday why? Why could we not help you? Why you could not talk to me?