Submission 246

To my best friend,

At times it feels like you’ve been gone for so long, but sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday. The shock of losing you is like nothing I’ve ever felt. I knew things had been difficult but I never thought it would come to this. When you died, I felt angry that you hadn’t confided in me like you always had. Why was this time different? I felt like you were selfish and had ruined all our lives. I wish you’d just waited, in the morning things would have looked differently. I also felt guilty that I’d rushed you off the phone that day. Two years later I feel differently. I’m just so sad you’re gone, and you have already missed so much. I miss my best friend. I’ve really needed you at times, and my life is so different now. I wish you could see that. I think you’d be proud after everything we spoke about. You had so much to give, you were so young. You had so much life in you and you were the funniest person I’ve ever met. For that to just be gone, is so difficult to comprehend. I wish I’d been able to tell you how much you meant to me, how much I loved you, how my life had been so much better for having you as my friend. I miss you.