Submission 189

My sweet girl,

How is it nearly 4 years since you left.
4 years since I last heard your voice.
4 years since I last received a message or silly Snapchat from you.
4 years since I was able to ask your advice on anything and everything.
Life hasn’t been the same since you left, I don’t think it will ever be the same again.
I am not the same person I was 4 years.
There is a massive Ali shaped hole in my heart, there is sooooo much we need to catch up.
So much has happened and I’ve had to do it without you and I just don’t think I’ll ever be okay with that.
I know it’s selfish of me to say but my god I wish you had stayed, so much more that you could ever imagine.
I love to think that if you were still here, you’d be well on your way to achieving all those dreams you had, you’d be living in your own place and making it home and you’d be singing in your sweet voice to millions by now oh how I miss your voice, I still haven’t been able to listen to you sing since you went. I’m going to save it until we meet again and I can’t wait
My big boy still looks for you in the brightest stars at night, and the baby one (named after you - same but different) well he definitely lives up to your name by keeping me on my toes every single day but he bring us so much love & laughter every day too.
I love and miss you more than you could ever know my sweet darling girl.
xxx