Submission 167

To Ben

Dearest Ben,

I have so many things to tell you, I have so many questions. Why would you leave? You were hurt in so many ways and felt pain that no one should feel. I wish I knew and I could do something. I still feel you in my heart though I know that you’re gone but those feelings will never change and this pain will never heal. My life has been changed since you left, I’ve changed a lot. I don’t like this new version of me, don’t get me wrong I’m not blaming you but it’s just impossible to move on. It’s been nearly 2 years but I can’t stop thinking about you.

I thought that season would come and pass, the sun would rise and set but I still remember, I arrived late… I got back when everyone was crying for you. Now this grief is a part of me. I’ve always loved you I hope you know that wherever you are now. I miss you everyday and want to hear your voice one more time.

You didn’t even say goodbye. I really hope I will see you again and I believe I will. You’re always in my heart . I wish I could help you Ben.

I love you so much XXX